Long awaited life update

I feel like its been sooooooooo long since I had posted but with good reason.  My precious little girl was born on June 2, 2014!!!!  We are just so in love with her <3  <3

We spent the summer doing stuff as a family, brining a baby into the world and taking it easy.  The boys have now gone back to school and life is more on track then before! 

I am in month 4 of my maternity leave which means I have 8 more months to spend with this precious angel.

Dh is working 2 jobs.  He doesn't have to but just wants to make more money at this time.  He has a full time job where he works 12 hour shifts, 3 times a week.  On his days off he works at another job.  I honestly don't know how he does it!

I am finally at a point where the baby is becoming less work as she is getting so BIG.   Im getting more sleep as she sleeps through the night most of the time so im feeling much better! I want to do another post that's all about her birth!

I just wanted to say im still here, still going!  I have lots of cool reviews and unboxing soon!!

TTC and Life Update (#itfeelslikeupdateonemillion)

Hello friends!

Ive been meaning to through a quick update here, ive had a few relolations happen since i was last here! If youve watched my most recent ttc vlog then you will know that I am now in my 20th cycle of TTCing.   Also, I have been on metformin 4x a day for PCOS.  Most recently i've started Femera. 

So far im on day 4 of Femera with my first medicated cycle.   Its exciting knowing that i may have a slightly better chance of getting prego this time around!  From what ive read it may take a few cycles but im really HOPING!   So heres my summary,

TODAY  im on CD 6
20th cycle of TTC
1st medicated cycle: taking Femera 2.5mg for 5 days starting on CD 3
Still taking Metformin 500mg x4 per day
AF started on July 15th! with 2 days of spotting prior
Today my temp was 36.09C
We are doing every other day (basically sperm mets egg method)
im HOPING <3
If i get my order soon from early pregnancy tests then im going to start my OPKs on CD 10
Temping and charting!


The whole family moved again.  This time we have a 3 bedroom detached house.  Its beautiful, it has a yard, a park behind us, quiet street, lots of young families, we even bought lawn furniture :)  We have a nice big living room, an eat in dining room and our kitchen has beautiful dark cabnets.  The bathroom is much bigger but now we only have 1.  The boys each have a bigger room!  Our room is probobly the same size or even smaller but everything fits so much better.  We are very happy now!  We even hung photos and curtins which we never did at the other place!  Id like to do tour video sometime real soon! 

I still work ALOT but we've been trying to make the most of summer.  We have had family over, done swimming.  Seems like theres a guest over everyday!

Well i supose thats it for today, please check out my latest video on Youtube and im looking for more friends on Instagram so if you have, please add me :)   Modernmommyjuels

Birth, Life and Death

This post isnt going to be as morbid as the title suggests :) See! Smiley face :)

So I really was thinking about LIFE and TTC.  Creating life is so frikkin amazing!

Less then a week ago I was at work and I had a particular patient who was palliative and we will call her Lucy.  And for those who don't know.... it basically means she was dying.   To paint a picture of what the past few years has been like; I first met her in 2009.  She has end stage dementia, not mobile, not verbal, confused, delirious but she was very sweet.  Harmless, otherwise oddly healthy and she LOVED baby's and boys [if a young man or baby came around she would perk right up, she even pinched a few butts lol].  So it's 3ish years later and I walk into her room.  She's laying in her bed, extremely frail, extremely pale.  Her lips are barely parted and her eyes open just a crack. I lower myself close to her bed and i call her name quietly.  She doesn't move, she doesn't blink, her eyes don't turn my way, she doesn't even inhale.  I called her again.... nothing..... and again.  I stood there for 30-40 seconds - and they felt like the longest seconds I have ever felt.  Waiting for someone to breath, move, show any signs of life seems like an eternity.   As I was looking at Lucy I was thinking how f*cked up it was if she were to be dead and i knew that if she was that there was nothing i was allowed to do [she was a do not resuscitate].  With the back of my hand i lightly touched the back of her hand and she took the tinyest breath you have ever seen.  *Whew* a sigh of relief... I took her vitals, covered her back up and left the room.  She kept experiencing that apnea or episodes of not breathing but Luc didn't die while i was there.  That evening after my shift she was finally put to rest and stopped breathing for real.  I'm sure it came with a lot waiting like i experienced.   I cant even explain how it feels to watch someone not breathe.  Sit and think that after 30 seconds that maybe shes not going to take another breath "this" time.  The last time i took her vitals that night, i talked to her regardless of the fact that she didn't respond or reply.  I told her how my baby had been in just prior to that and asked if she remembers meeting him.  She was a magnificent women full of life in her day who was overcome with Alzheimer's.  I didn't know her in the days she would wonder, dance and go through everything people typically go through when they have that disease.  Ill always remember her as the women who would laugh at everything i said, even if it wasn't funny, or whose eyes would light up every time Dancing with the Stars came on [she was a dance teacher in her day].

Life is so precious.... I can actually say that I've given someone their first bath.... and Ive given someone their last bath.....  Lucy's death came with sadness but I am forever grateful that I could play a part in the last part of her life.   These are the feelings that I know make me into a great mom.  I so very much want to continue to share these types of feeling.  Death doesn't have to be a bad and scary thing... everyone is going to experience it at sometime. In a wierd way the end of life is an amazing experience as well. I believe that everyone also has the right to experience the making of life as well....

These are just thoughts.... ramblings and such.  I really, really hope that  birth is my next experience <3 <3

Well over due blog!

I have been MIA - here are my excuses

1- my mom had a baby via adoption so i went to help her out for several days
2- started new job
3- night shift threw off my sleep schedule
4- nothing happening TTCwise
5- spending weekends with dh

:)

So heres a quick TTC update
- CD 19
- inputing fake temps gave me an O day of CD 17 - so i guess im 2dpo
- OPKs fail me this month, never had any positives or dark lines in general

My plans this week
- try not to POAS
- wedding weekend after this weekend
- tanning
- working 3 - 12 h shifts :(


Will do a more in depth update soon :)
Till then visit my vlog:

**TTC giveaway coming up soon!!!!  waiting for 50 subscribers on Youtube!!!!  :)

This weeks happenings in a nutshell

I have been extremely busy!

If I've been at home, Ive been car hunting.  I can literally looks for hours [what a loser]. LOL!  Other then this life has just been going with the flow.   Over the weekend I went to visit my mom and for the first time made the 3 hour drive where i was actually the driver!!!  Was easy!   It was Dhs birthday Saturday so we celebrated with cake and presents :) I bought him some sexy tighy whiteys to which i fully expect a personal modelling session with :) :D hehe!   

As for TTCing I am CD 28! and approx 9dpo [based on estimates since Kamden threw away my BBT].  I did an iffy hcg test today and I sware i see a line! I SWARE IT!  i even posted it here - used the invert feature and i still see something!!  Now it could be an evap line since the pic was 15-20 mins after the test but i cant help hoping!!  ill be testing again tomorrow, everyone please pray i get a BFP!!!!!  Also vote on what you think about my test.   Keep in mind that the BLUE test is the pregnancy test and the others were my OPKs!

Vote here - the other voters are giving some mixed review however most are saying positive!!!

Ive began to post updates via twitter so those interested can add me here to be notified of a blog update. 

I really have lead a boring life this week despite the crazed happenings!!  I'm just so darn excited about this possible BFP!!!  Will update tomorrow!