Showing posts with label TTC journey. Show all posts
Showing posts with label TTC journey. Show all posts

Monday, 22 September 2014

Presenting Shanley Marie Joan

I went to sleep on Sunday June 1, 2014 being 38 weeks and 1 day pregnant.  Somewhere between 12-3am I felt a little (TMI) wetness.  I thought it might be a little urine or discharge.  I went to the bathroom and when I wiped the toilet paper had what looked like really concentrated urine.  It was super yellow!  I figured I should probably start drinking more water!  I went back to bed and fell asleep.  A while later I felt the feeling again.  This time I decided to ignore it, I was so sleepy!  Sometimes between 4-430 am I felt the feeling again, only this time there was the unmistakable feeling of much more fluid.  I KNEW this time that it was in fact my water.  I did a hop skip and a jump to the bathroom, water started to come down my legs.  I sat on the toilet and the big gush came.  I sat until I felt it was safe to get up.  When I wiped, the paper was more yellow this time but almost with a tint of green.  When I saw the toilet water, I knew there was a problem.  It was totally green! Almost black!  Being a nurse I knew this meant there was meconium in the water and I should get ready to go to the hospital.  I hoped into the shower and went to get my Doppler and the phone.  I checked baby's heart beat then called the hospital.  I told them my water was discoloured and that I was Step positive so I was going to come in. 

I woke up DH and told him there was a problem and that my water broke.  We got the bags together and I woke up my oldest son to let him know we were leaving.   Dh and I were on our way to the hospital!!  In the car I felt the very first contractions.  Only I didn't know it was a contraction as I was nervous and thought it was just my body reacting.  When we got to the hospital they got me to change into a gown and give a urine sample.  Ugh my sample did not look good.  It was like a cup of army green mud water, it was definitely gross.  Nobody checked this right away, I left it in the bathroom.  They had me on the monitor and we talked about what lead to this.  They had me put on oxygen and turn onto my side as the baby seemed to be in a little distress.  Ling on my right side seemed to ease this, and baby looked better on the monitor.   I told them baby was breech so they should test to find out if she turned.  My blood pressure was super high!!! After 20-30 mins, someone finally looked at the urine sample and this is where everything started to go fast. When they seen how green it was, they called the on-call OB right away.  In a matter of 10 mins there was several doctors and nurses in the room, poor dh got pushed to the back.  The OB laid it out straight, baby was still breech, my blood pressure was high, baby was having some late D cells, there was a lot of meconium and MOST shocking, I was already 5cm dilated!!!  For these reasons he wanted to do an emergency C-Section right away before the labour progressed, or the baby went into further distress.  At this point I was feeling contractions but they weren't too bad.  I told Dwight to start calling people, my dad would be the one to pick up the boys for school.  He tried calling my mom too, but there was no answer so we left messages.  We had planned for my sister to come in the delivery room but we told them it would be a C-section so she probably wouldn't make it. 

It all happened quick and next thing I knew we were in the OR.  They did the spinal and at this point I was having very painful contractions!!  I always wondered how far dilated I was, I imagine I was near birth because of how quick and painful the contractions got in such a short time.  While they were setting up, 2 nurses decided to get into a little spat.  Being a nurse myself I was laughing on the inside, nurses CAN be evil bitches, just like any other women.  I didn't take it to heart because in a way I "get" it but come onnnnnnnnnnn, I'm trying to bring a person into the world here.  The evil one kept telling the other one that she should just leave, I found it weird that no one else interrupted them.  FINALLY someone said to stop.  Soon the staff was ready and they let DH in and he came to sit by my head.  I was feeling so nauseated and kept getting the worst heartburn I ever had!!  That anesthesiologist was a miracle worker cause he could take the nausea away almost instantly.  A paediatrician was there in case the baby had problems and she told me not to get upset if the baby didn't cry at first cause she probably wouldn't.  A few minutes later my precious baby came out.  It was at 7:01am on Monday, June 2, 2104 and the first thing I asked is if she was a girl for sure.  And she was!!!  <3  Just like they said, she didn't cry at first.  They took her and she was having a little trouble breathing but she looked good.  She was a whopping 8lbs 2oz and 19.5in long.   They wrapped her up and brought her to me so I could see her and give her a kiss.  They said she would need to go to the NICU right away and she would be put on CPAP. 



I told DH he should go with her, I just wanted to know she wouldn't be alone and she would be okay.   They worked on me then I went to recovery.  It was weird being on that side, im usually not the patient.  I was only there a short time, then I went to my room on the maternity floor.  It seemed like an eternity!!!!!!!! Dh was gone for soooooo long and I didn't have my phone so I had no choice but to wait for him, or some news.  I couldn't walk at all yet as I was still completely numb.  He finally came!!!!!  Turns out he went to get a bite to eat, I wasn't mad though, it was quite the morning!!   He also went and bought baby her first teddy bear <3 He said she looked good and she was in an isolate for now.  My major regret is that there are no photos of that experience.  There wasn't enough time and things were crazy.   Dh took a selfie while waiting to be let into the OR BUT they took our stuff including our phones so when the time came to take pics we had no camera or phone :(  our belongings ended up in our room.   I did receive an update, baby was doing well and would be off CPAP later today!!




My mom and sister showed up not to long after that and we sat in my room for what felt like forever.  I started to get feeling in my legs and I was super anxious to go see the baby.  When the nurses approved, I was finally able to go see her.  Standing for the first time was weird.  It was like a horror movie, the second I gained my footing a huge gush of blood came our and splattered all over the floor, It was scary, it was like concentrated red scary blood.  After getting cleaned up my mom, sister and dh pushed me down to the NICU. We got to see and hold and take pics of her <3 <3 By the time we went down, she was off the machines and only had an IV.  they told us she was having some blood sugar issues so would be on IV until it resolved.  Here is some of her first pics:




We went back to my room and my mom left shortly after.  I started to experience more pain as my anesthesia wore off.  They did bring the baby to my room, and said I could try nursing later that night.  The boys and my dad came to visit.






The next 3 days are a blur, they brought the baby to me every 3 hours to try and feed, they felt it was more comfortable then going down to the NICU which it was.  We had visitors on and off but I was alone most of the time.  Dh still had to go to work as he started a new job recently, he missed one day.

We finally decided on a name, we called her Shanley Marie Joan.  Marie was Dhs grandma and Joan was my grandma.  Shanley had absolutely no complication from the large amount of meconium in her sac and we were so grateful for this.  She did however continue to have blood sugar problems.  I was also having milk supply issues and my milk wouldn't come in despite feeding every 3 hours.  I was discharged from hospital on Wednesday but Shanley had to stay.   Her blood sugar continued to go up and down for days.  So for days and days I traveled to and from hospital to feed her.  We lived close enough that I could do this but it was tiring plus I was still recovering from surgery.  The weekend came and they had no plans to let her come home :(  it was sad and hard and I got super exhausted.  FINALLY on Sunday we got to take this precious girl home!





So that's the story of baby girl <3  Here is one last pic set, this is her newborn shoot photos which we had done almost as soon as she was out of the hospital <3



 

 

Saturday, 20 July 2013

TTC and Life Update (#itfeelslikeupdateonemillion)

Hello friends!

Ive been meaning to through a quick update here, ive had a few relolations happen since i was last here! If youve watched my most recent ttc vlog then you will know that I am now in my 20th cycle of TTCing.   Also, I have been on metformin 4x a day for PCOS.  Most recently i've started Femera. 

So far im on day 4 of Femera with my first medicated cycle.   Its exciting knowing that i may have a slightly better chance of getting prego this time around!  From what ive read it may take a few cycles but im really HOPING!   So heres my summary,

TODAY  im on CD 6
20th cycle of TTC
1st medicated cycle: taking Femera 2.5mg for 5 days starting on CD 3
Still taking Metformin 500mg x4 per day
AF started on July 15th! with 2 days of spotting prior
Today my temp was 36.09C
We are doing every other day (basically sperm mets egg method)
im HOPING <3
If i get my order soon from early pregnancy tests then im going to start my OPKs on CD 10
Temping and charting!


The whole family moved again.  This time we have a 3 bedroom detached house.  Its beautiful, it has a yard, a park behind us, quiet street, lots of young families, we even bought lawn furniture :)  We have a nice big living room, an eat in dining room and our kitchen has beautiful dark cabnets.  The bathroom is much bigger but now we only have 1.  The boys each have a bigger room!  Our room is probobly the same size or even smaller but everything fits so much better.  We are very happy now!  We even hung photos and curtins which we never did at the other place!  Id like to do tour video sometime real soon! 

I still work ALOT but we've been trying to make the most of summer.  We have had family over, done swimming.  Seems like theres a guest over everyday!

Well i supose thats it for today, please check out my latest video on Youtube and im looking for more friends on Instagram so if you have, please add me :)   Modernmommyjuels

Thursday, 9 August 2012

Update, VEDA and Giveaways!

Hello Everyone!!  Going to keep it short and sweet.  I have been sooooo busy with the VEDA project.  Veda is Video Every Day in August!! I will post a link to my first VEDA video!!



PLEASE PLEASE click this link to view it as opposed to watching it in blogger, only because i need views on this video!!  Thank you very much for your support!!!


A quick TTC update
- last cycle was only 26 days
- unusually light AF x2 months
- short Luteal Phase of 9-10 days x2months
- currently on CD8
- started on some new herbal supps to help my short LP
- i began temping yesterday but forgot to today :( opps

Life Update
- tried on wedding dresses this week :)
- decided on a wedding venue
- working full time hours despite my oncall status
- every weekend in august is filling up real fast!

So thats it for today, VEDA takes up a lot of time - editing plus watching and supporting other VEDAs so to see whats up please visit my Youtube channel!

Giveaways:
I have 2 upcoming giveaways

- if you watched my 1st VEDA you will see i said i have a surprise however my blog readers get the inside edge :) there will be a giveaway mid month (at end of this week) and will be a giveaway for ALL

- at 30 subscribers i will have another giveaway which will be TTC related :)

So watch out for those in the near future!  I will also have a new review up soon related to Short Luteal Phases and what to do about them!

And now i leave you with a pic :)


Wednesday, 25 July 2012

Well over due blog!

I have been MIA - here are my excuses

1- my mom had a baby via adoption so i went to help her out for several days
2- started new job
3- night shift threw off my sleep schedule
4- nothing happening TTCwise
5- spending weekends with dh

:)

So heres a quick TTC update
- CD 19
- inputing fake temps gave me an O day of CD 17 - so i guess im 2dpo
- OPKs fail me this month, never had any positives or dark lines in general

My plans this week
- try not to POAS
- wedding weekend after this weekend
- tanning
- working 3 - 12 h shifts :(


Will do a more in depth update soon :)
Till then visit my vlog:


**TTC giveaway coming up soon!!!!  waiting for 50 subscribers on Youtube!!!!  :)

Monday, 9 July 2012

TTC Update on Cycle 6!

AHHHH I hate roller coaster cycles.   That's what I had to put it nicely.

It started by not Oing when i should, which caused a mess up of BH timing.  I wasted a lot of materials based on probable ovulation.   I finally Id on CD 25!   THEN while in the 2ww wait i did some HPTs and got this:


Which confused the hell out of me because it "looks" like a possible 2nd line.  I started a log for my regular schedule and other TTC type stuff.

**ALSO in the 2ww I became engaged!!!!  I must mention this part :)  I went to visit my friends for the Canada Day Long Weekend which was also my Birthday.   DH proposed by the falls right on my birthday!!  Us and 2 friends went for a day trip on June 30th which was a Saturday and this is a summary of events:  my BFF and I got matching friendship tattoos, we strolled down Clinton Hill, seen the falls where DH proposed in front of EVERYone!!!  I was so shocked i was actually shaking!!!  lol.   Then we went and had dinner at The Rainforest Cafe! The evening was finished with taking a leisurely ride on the giant Farris wheel! It was one of the best birthdays ever!!!  Here's my ring and tattoo ( this is my friends tat but mine is identical and on my shoulder)!

On Canada Day which was the Sunday we went to Toronto Ribfest - was fun, we ate ribs, watched fireworks and took the kids for some fun!!  We went home to my BFF and the 4 of us (I should mention that we are 2 couples) played a bunch of drinking games!  Drank beer and laughed a lot.   Good times!!!


So back to TTC - I had taking many tests, i thought for a split second that maybe i was pregnant!  Turns out I'm not and I'm now on CD 3 :/  here is my latest TTC vlog so you can hope over to Youtube and view that:


****Side note: I will be doing a TTC giveaway at 100 subscribers!!!!  I only have about 12 now so It will be a little while but lets get me up to 100!!***

That brings us into Cycle 7!!!!  I'm not sad or shocked since I know I was way off with O.   Lets all hope for a normal cycle this month!!!!  LUCKY 7!!!!!!

Wednesday, 27 June 2012

FINALLY

A temp increase has finally happened. I seriously didn't think I'd see the day. I guess I'm technically in the 2ww now however I am a little disappointed. I'm not used to O being so damn late and i didn't time BD with that in mind :( So I'm basically counting myself out for this month now :( My chart is a mess... I did the ol add 2 fake temps in to get cross hairs and Its giving me an O date of CD 25. The last BD session I had was CD 22 and is very unlikely to happen for us :( So this puts me into cycle 7 of TTC :( I am beginning to wonder when and if this will ever happen for us :(

Tuesday, 26 June 2012

QUICKY - up date that is!

I AM STILL IN LIMBO!!!

CD 24 - low temps!!!  I have no idea whats going on :(  here are my opks so far...


I hurt my back on Friday :( I still had a fairly active weekend but it reached a peak yesterday.  I went to the Dr and was started on 3 meds :(  I can move about better today however i had to miss my first day of work and that sux!

OHHHH mystery package arrived this weekend.... I wonder what could be inside....
- stay tuned to see what it was!!!!

Thursday, 21 June 2012

New FB Update

Created a new FB page...come over and friend me by clicking here

 - - a small update, temps still low today :( its CD 20 and I have no clue whats going on :( I should be 3dpo and testing in a week but not sure what to do now :(

Wednesday, 20 June 2012

CD 19 - Come on 2WW

UGHHHHH!!!! Sometimes TTC is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo confusing!!

SO heres where I am at....
CD 19
Not sure if im past ovulation
Temps are still low
No positive OPKs - tons of two line tests


What ive been doing...
OPKs once a day, now doing 2 a day [i swear these things HATE me]
was taking robitussin - stopped that
BD everyday
Temping
Using the softcups
Pre-seed

I am so ready to be in the 2WW - wish those temps would go up!


At some point Im going to do a full post on the soft cups and pre-seed but for now ill say that the pre-seed was cool, makes things a lil more "fun".  Soft cups scared the crap out of me when they arrived due to their size and texture however I am shocked with how easy to use they are!!!  with the pre-seed they just slid right in with little effort.  Getting them out was hard till I figured out how to get it.   Here's to hoping that its my month...FX...

OHHH and I almost forgot - started a youtube channel.  will do occasional updates on there re:my TTC journey.   I love that I will have all of this to look back on.  Im truly amazed with the support of other women and am in LOVE with seeing their journeys.... so relate-able.
Check that out here:


sorry about the thumbnail...they dont give much options and i look horrid in the others :S

Monday, 4 June 2012

My bebe is 2 and CD 2 :(

First I'll start off with some great news!  My precious little Bubszer turned 2 this past week <3 <3 its soooooooooo crazy how time flies!! 



We had a birthday party for him this past weekend.   We were supposed to go to the zoo but we were rained out and had his dinner at Pizza Hut :)  It was awesome because we were the only people in the restaurant, and ordered soooooooooooo much food!  The kids were as crazy and loud as they wanted without disturbing others!  Kamden thoroughly enjoyed his birthday cake:


After his dinner we took him to InPlay play centre {basically like chuckee cheese but more age appropriate} and the kids had a BLAST!  Even the adults had fun :)  It was a perfect 2nd birthday even though our original plans didn't work out :)

So onto the bad news!

...

As the subject line of this post suggests, I am on CD 2 :( which means a new cycle of TTC for me.   All of the pregnancy tests I had taken after that iffy one were BFN's :( As i look back at my chart I see there are somethings I would have done differently.  It cant be helped....  This cycle was SUCH A TEASE!  I got extremely light spotting on Friday night then it totally stopped {i was thinking YES! Implantation bleeding}!!!!  But i was wrong, and about 24hours later AF had came.   It reminded me of my March cycle where I was 8 days late with my period!!  TTC is so disappointing at times.   I still have tons of OPK/HCGs for this coming cycle and i definitely need to get a new BBT!!!  I hate feeling like I'm in the "dark" with my temps.   ALSO I have discovered another TTC tool!!  Thanks to the lovely ladies of the BabyZone community i found out about Soft Cups.  So Ive ordered this as well as some pre seed.  Ill be giving this a go this cycle! [These products are all from www.early-pregnancy-tests.com]  :)

So here is what my month is looking like so far...


Oh so plain - - This better be my month!!

Tuesday, 29 May 2012

This weeks happenings in a nutshell

I have been extremely busy!

If I've been at home, Ive been car hunting.  I can literally looks for hours [what a loser]. LOL!  Other then this life has just been going with the flow.   Over the weekend I went to visit my mom and for the first time made the 3 hour drive where i was actually the driver!!!  Was easy!   It was Dhs birthday Saturday so we celebrated with cake and presents :) I bought him some sexy tighy whiteys to which i fully expect a personal modelling session with :) :D hehe!   

As for TTCing I am CD 28! and approx 9dpo [based on estimates since Kamden threw away my BBT].  I did an iffy hcg test today and I sware i see a line! I SWARE IT!  i even posted it here - used the invert feature and i still see something!!  Now it could be an evap line since the pic was 15-20 mins after the test but i cant help hoping!!  ill be testing again tomorrow, everyone please pray i get a BFP!!!!!  Also vote on what you think about my test.   Keep in mind that the BLUE test is the pregnancy test and the others were my OPKs!

Vote here - the other voters are giving some mixed review however most are saying positive!!!

Ive began to post updates via twitter so those interested can add me here to be notified of a blog update. 

I really have lead a boring life this week despite the crazed happenings!!  I'm just so darn excited about this possible BFP!!!  Will update tomorrow!