IPSY BAG - MAY 2013

So thanks to one of the lovely YtubeTTCers, I subscribed to IPSY.com :)  When you subscribe you receive a cool make up bag filled with goodies!!!  I watched her videos on the unboxing of the bag so i thought id give it a try.

I ordered on May 16, 2013 and received my first bag on May 25, 2013.  Now apparently subscriptions are mailed out on the 15th of each month so mine likely didn't get shipped till a few days after i signed up!  The cost of the bag is $10/month and shipping is free in the USA.  Since I'm in Canada i paid a small shipping fee no more then $4.  So my total was approx $14. 

Here is what i got in the mail: a hot pink package :D very pretty!

 

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Inside is a cute bag and a card that says MAY: SPRING FLING, as well as a card with special offers from the supplies of the goodies!

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 At first look in the bag i see all of the May goodies - As a side note u get 5-6 items per bag, some are sample size some are full size.  You do a quiz when you sign up with IPSY and they determine which items best suite you!  

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FIRST ITEM: Zoya Nail Polish -In GIE GIE pink # ZP651
This Item retails for $8 on their website and comes in a zillion colours!  I got pink in my bag and ill definitely use this colour.  Its a nice feminine pink that would look nice on finger or toes nails!  Comes in a pretty box as well :)  I received a full size product!

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ITEM 2: St.Tropez Instant glow body lotion (washable tanner).

This item retails for $15 on their website and they have other options to chose from as well as other types of tanners.  When you open it up the lotion looks a very dark brown.   Don't be scared by this cause it actually goes on very sheer.  We all know I like to be brown so ill definitely use this!!  They have larger sizes available so i assume this is a sample size however it seems like you get a fair bit in the sample.

 

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ITEM 3: Macadamia Healing oil Treatment for hair
This item retails for $13.50 and is one of many sizes the website offers (therefore can be seen as full size product).  They range from $6 to $75 for the largest bottle. It smells great however I've never used this kind of oil before.  It says it can be used as a finisher however if i dont use it, it may be in a giveaway in the future :)

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ITEM 4: JUICE Beauty Lipgloss in  Champagne #1J3
This items retails for $15!!!  This is by far my favourite item!  Its dead on, the kind of product i buy and even in a colour id typically get.  It looks amazing over a super light pink! AHHH i love this <3 <3  This is a full size product!

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ITEM 5: YABY Concealer in buff #cc008
This item retails for $4.95 and can be bought as a full size refill.  I'm very lucky cause this is pretty damn close to my colour so ill actually be able to use it! YAY!

So there you have it, MAY 2013 IPSY bag :)  I paid $14 and got a bag worth more then $56.35 (and that's not including the cost of the bag itself!  This was definitely worth the cost i paid and if you like make-up then its totally worth it!  Might I add that most of these products were natural/organic :)

Totally psyched for the June BAG.  If  you want to subscribe please use my link so i can get some IPSY points!!

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TTC, cycle 18, metformin = fail

ughh well here we go into cycle 18

Can you all believe that for 18 cycles i haven't had ANY pregnancies?  This infertility stuff isn't so exciting.   If anything, its as horrible as it looks in movies.  I'm starting to wonder if ill even be able to get pregnant.... maybe ill have to do IUI/IVF.... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr its so frustrating!

My metformin isnt going so well either.  I feel sick all the time if i don't eat.   I'm wondering if the pills are even working.  it should work something like this:

higher then normal glucose > high insulin levels > take pill > lower insulin > good ovulation

but to me it looks something like this:

higher then normal glucose > high insulin levels > take pill > eat! > sugar increases even more> ????


I'm so ready to try something new.  I have my next appointment with the doctor on June 20.   It feels so damn far away!!!!!!  :(


In other new my two best friends both had their babies.  Spring had her little boy last Saturday, she names him Liam.  My BFF had her little girls on Sunday and names her Kaniya!   I was there with her from Friday -Sunday.  Spend a million hours at the hospital sitting around.  She had 2 rounds of the gel to ripen her cervix with 2 fails :(  She finally got going into labour on Sunday!   And she used her superhuman powers to push that baby out with 3 rounds of pushes.  It was AMAZING to see.  That little girls is just so sweet i wanna steal her <3 <3  

Its so strange that i was TTCing way before them, they both have went through pregnancies and births in that time.  So NOT fair :(   I'm glad they have her bebes but i just cant wait for my turn :( I guess I'm just being a sore loser :( wahhh

I AM STILL here, still TTCing!

Hey all i am still here!!

ive done some YT updates but for some reason there is no sound :(  trying to figure it out but hopefully i can update soon!

Well im a married woman now :)
I work a lot
Have been diagnosed with PCOS
currently taking metformin, charting and opking!
Hopeing for a winter 2014 baby!!!!

i have been updating instagram a lot lately but need some new IG friends! come find me with the name modernmommyjuels!!!!

VEDA Week 2!

My VEDA week 2 video is now up on YouTube and is in need of more views!!!  Please visit me there :)   Dont forget to enter the giveaway!!!

Update, VEDA and Giveaways!

Hello Everyone!!  Going to keep it short and sweet.  I have been sooooo busy with the VEDA project.  Veda is Video Every Day in August!! I will post a link to my first VEDA video!!

PLEASE PLEASE click this link to view it as opposed to watching it in blogger, only because i need views on this video!!  Thank you very much for your support!!!


A quick TTC update
- last cycle was only 26 days
- unusually light AF x2 months
- short Luteal Phase of 9-10 days x2months
- currently on CD8
- started on some new herbal supps to help my short LP
- i began temping yesterday but forgot to today :( opps

Life Update
- tried on wedding dresses this week :)
- decided on a wedding venue
- working full time hours despite my oncall status
- every weekend in august is filling up real fast!

So thats it for today, VEDA takes up a lot of time - editing plus watching and supporting other VEDAs so to see whats up please visit my Youtube channel!

Giveaways:
I have 2 upcoming giveaways

- if you watched my 1st VEDA you will see i said i have a surprise however my blog readers get the inside edge :) there will be a giveaway mid month (at end of this week) and will be a giveaway for ALL

- at 30 subscribers i will have another giveaway which will be TTC related :)

So watch out for those in the near future!  I will also have a new review up soon related to Short Luteal Phases and what to do about them!

And now i leave you with a pic :)

Birth, Life and Death

This post isnt going to be as morbid as the title suggests :) See! Smiley face :)

So I really was thinking about LIFE and TTC.  Creating life is so frikkin amazing!

Less then a week ago I was at work and I had a particular patient who was palliative and we will call her Lucy.  And for those who don't know.... it basically means she was dying.   To paint a picture of what the past few years has been like; I first met her in 2009.  She has end stage dementia, not mobile, not verbal, confused, delirious but she was very sweet.  Harmless, otherwise oddly healthy and she LOVED baby's and boys [if a young man or baby came around she would perk right up, she even pinched a few butts lol].  So it's 3ish years later and I walk into her room.  She's laying in her bed, extremely frail, extremely pale.  Her lips are barely parted and her eyes open just a crack. I lower myself close to her bed and i call her name quietly.  She doesn't move, she doesn't blink, her eyes don't turn my way, she doesn't even inhale.  I called her again.... nothing..... and again.  I stood there for 30-40 seconds - and they felt like the longest seconds I have ever felt.  Waiting for someone to breath, move, show any signs of life seems like an eternity.   As I was looking at Lucy I was thinking how f*cked up it was if she were to be dead and i knew that if she was that there was nothing i was allowed to do [she was a do not resuscitate].  With the back of my hand i lightly touched the back of her hand and she took the tinyest breath you have ever seen.  *Whew* a sigh of relief... I took her vitals, covered her back up and left the room.  She kept experiencing that apnea or episodes of not breathing but Luc didn't die while i was there.  That evening after my shift she was finally put to rest and stopped breathing for real.  I'm sure it came with a lot waiting like i experienced.   I cant even explain how it feels to watch someone not breathe.  Sit and think that after 30 seconds that maybe shes not going to take another breath "this" time.  The last time i took her vitals that night, i talked to her regardless of the fact that she didn't respond or reply.  I told her how my baby had been in just prior to that and asked if she remembers meeting him.  She was a magnificent women full of life in her day who was overcome with Alzheimer's.  I didn't know her in the days she would wonder, dance and go through everything people typically go through when they have that disease.  Ill always remember her as the women who would laugh at everything i said, even if it wasn't funny, or whose eyes would light up every time Dancing with the Stars came on [she was a dance teacher in her day].

Life is so precious.... I can actually say that I've given someone their first bath.... and Ive given someone their last bath.....  Lucy's death came with sadness but I am forever grateful that I could play a part in the last part of her life.   These are the feelings that I know make me into a great mom.  I so very much want to continue to share these types of feeling.  Death doesn't have to be a bad and scary thing... everyone is going to experience it at sometime. In a wierd way the end of life is an amazing experience as well. I believe that everyone also has the right to experience the making of life as well....

These are just thoughts.... ramblings and such.  I really, really hope that  birth is my next experience <3 <3

Well over due blog!

I have been MIA - here are my excuses

1- my mom had a baby via adoption so i went to help her out for several days
2- started new job
3- night shift threw off my sleep schedule
4- nothing happening TTCwise
5- spending weekends with dh

:)

So heres a quick TTC update
- CD 19
- inputing fake temps gave me an O day of CD 17 - so i guess im 2dpo
- OPKs fail me this month, never had any positives or dark lines in general

My plans this week
- try not to POAS
- wedding weekend after this weekend
- tanning
- working 3 - 12 h shifts :(


Will do a more in depth update soon :)
Till then visit my vlog:

**TTC giveaway coming up soon!!!!  waiting for 50 subscribers on Youtube!!!!  :)